T.Rex has a migraine

I have a chronic illness, yup it's true. I have chronic migraines. Part of my whole learn to eat better thing has been in an effort to be better and not get migraines but the truth is the migraine cycle doesn't really seem to give a shit if i eat all organic low glycemic meals or not. It is a monster that will devour me whole.

After a couple years of being mostly headache free I have rentered the land of migraine awfulness. The last four days have been spend in a total migraine daze where I am not sure if I should go to the hospital or lie down in a cave somewhere or just wait for my brain to find an escape hatch and crawl out of my head in the middle of the night.

complicate this by the fact that i have a lot of commitments at work and home and socially that i can't back out of. i'm tonning them down, but man it's just not fun for me right now.

so i am not cooking which sucks, and i am not eating delicious things, which also sucks. Migraines make me crave starchy foods and gatorade. Because i guess it sucks the electrolytes and sugars from me. so i've been existing on fast food burgers, fries, popcorn and gatorade. I try to eat my normal low GI foods but i find they just don't sustain me. I burn through them too fast which isn't right or normal.

I have had this migraine attack since tuesday. On that day i almost went to the hospital and begged them to give me a lobotomy. But i persevered and with a combination of every drug i had, gravol, gatorade, cheesy popcorn and not moving even the slightest bit i seemed to survive. Now I am in what seems to be a recovery period of frequent low blood sugar crashes no matter how high value/protein/low GI the food is, with constant dizziness and feeling like alice when she fell down the rabbit hole.

And yet i have been tow ork every day except one.
i have driven to the hospital over an hour away nearly every day to see my grandmother.
i am insane.